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friends or pretenders ?
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 || 1:50 AM
you know , i think when its 1.51 am and you can't sleep surely something is bothering you, and it sucks when everyone else is sleeping and the only option you have left is blogging, but then again all the words flow and there's no need to be someone else, its just your words, your raw emotions, no editing, no judgments.
well i guess a lot of things are bothering my mind. but for some reason i think its stupid, I'm sure you know what I'm talking. when you have the littlest thing and it bothers the hell out of you, but is it really little if its got you staying up till 2am when your SC trials are the next day ?
do you ever have something or someone, who when they do the littlest things, it just stays with you longer than most things? for example if they don't show up to meet with you or they don't say hello or just don't talk when you log on msn ? its like well I'm not judging from you, but i don't know why, force of habit maybe ? but i instantly think, did i do something wrong ? what did i do , and then you try in your head to rewind to that moment, if there is one that is and try to see what went wrong.
maybe its just were too attached to that person , that when were not shown love or affection we instantly turn to the worst of ourselves instead of realizing hey , were always there for that person and if they don't want to show the common courtesy of hello's or simple how was your days , because we all know that one person can brighten up even the darkest of days, we all have that regardless of the life around us.
maybe sometimes we should just deal that we could show someone the whole world but to them were just another person and maybe that's all we'll ever be ?. but theres a saying that goes like this '' you don't truly realise what you have until its gone'', and thats true but sometimes we dont want to be realised through that. We want to be realised when were there, when we put that person second to none, when the things that worry the heck out of us always relate back to them, its something we all want, something we all need to be wanted or felt needed by that person but sometimes, they dont realise, and they cant read minds right ?
but still if they were truley a good friend , then most blogs like this wouldnt exist , but also remember , theres no such thing as the perfect friend , they all have some quantity you want in your life but not all the perfect ones, so remember no ones perfect and if your having troubles all you can do is talk and being the good friend as they '' ARE'', should understand and if they dont want to, well the choice of what you mean and where they should be in your life is clearly made , no one deserves to go through this ordeal... remember no big steps , babysteps ...