“You'll Never Walk Alone”

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well, this blog isn't something for people to read for some clarification on their lives , its just something i need to get out there , something thats been bothering me for days , and i felt blogging would help it .

i was watching a movie , gone baby gone and you see people how their lives change dramatically under excruciating circumstances and that's how lives are, but the people that cause these problems are what bothers me . See , for example there was a cop who turned out to be a murderer in the end , but what lead him there is what bothers me . was he not not given birth to by his mother just like us ? did he not have a childhood like us , did he not go to school or have something in his life , just like we do today and will continue to do , was he not just like US at some stage of his life.

people will go , this is a movie but its a movie that represents the very facts of life, movies go where we only dream or dare to go , and they tell the reality, and this is the reality, that a man who was once probably on a computer like me or doing something in fact probably peacefully sleeping, yet he ended up where he did , six feet under .

was his life gone to waste ? , did he impact someone or various people in any way , i'm sure the murders did , but himself did he do anything that he will be remembered for , and the question for me is , what am i doing ? , what do i do that i will be remembered for , the blogs will be long gone , my advice will be forgotten , but what i do wont be , but the questions is , will i sit here and wait for my moment , or do i seize the opportunity and live with no regrets and then my belonging would mean something, right now , i have no answer , what will i be ? , i have no answer but one thing i do know , that i will try to be remembered for something , the question i ask you is , what will you do , what will you become that you'll be remembered for ?

2010 , is not what i expected it to be, i mean i predicted some things but even then you cant prepare yourself for what you feel next...

the one thing that people seem to reminisce about the most is the past and what it SHOULD be like , rather than not accepting what it is, for example i HAD this friend who was seemingly my one and only source of reliability, you could say they were my best friend and yes i would've done anything for them , but from being the best of friends , were now the best of strangers , its as if we've never met and for me i cant seem to accept that fact , our past is what is keeping me holding on , and i know im not the only one, i know im not the only one whos holding onto the past hoping for the same right now and in the future, but the thing is if we hold onto those , we will never forsee our future , what is in store for us .

You hold on , and you stay on that one thing for a long time, infact it becomes your obsession, you dont see whats around you , you dont see what you do , all you see is that one thing you thrive for , the one thing you obsess for and infact you'll stop at nothing to keep that , because its your source of happiness , but you have to realise that you'll always come back to that if you keep holding on , if you keep cherishing and you keep wanting what you had , you'll never move on , and youll always ask , why does life always spin in the same circle and your answer will always be , because your holding on, it may seem simple but its far from it , but you wont live until you doo ..

scared of what the future holds? , hell i am , whos gonna be there ? whos gonna be gone , you could be sitting and talking to your best friend, and you dont see you two drifting , but you have to remember , there was a time you had the same friend, the same feeling and in the end , the improbable happened , you two dont talk anymore , i know ive had that , the future is a scary prospect sure , but its what each day is for , for you to take that step closer to your future , and its best to not know what it holds, because your life is something you cant replay , no second chances , you continue until the end and that is the best thrill of all , its always a guessing game , so guess what comes next in your life ? ....