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Thursday, September 30, 2010 || 3:02 PM
as the song true - Claude Kelly plays in the background ,
many memories come rushing back to mind , many painful ones ,
i guess cause that's the song that was in my mind at those times ,
i guess it holds those memories ,
and during those memories , i see clear now that i was always
the one who was trying to hold onto something , even if that
person wasn't so strong i still tried to keep them above water
and keep them on the ground , and i guess each time , friendship after
friendship it repeated itself .. kinda like deja vu ? except each time i didn't
see it coming , i wish i did , because even looking back on it , it fucking hurts
still .. so much ..
each time id get treated like crap , but id still wait for them to come online ,
talk to them , comfort them and even spend all night or days after school
with them , just to make sure they were okayyy just because i cared ,
yeah thanks for that one , for nothing , wasted time on all those fucking friendships
and for what ?
tears for nothing ? fantastic . brilliant
what a great bunch of friends you were , find someone else
and boom fuck off like i never mattered , oh wait ..
I FUCKING DIDN'T MATTER :)
oh wells .
i just know , even tho this blog doesn't seem like it ,
I'm happy , genuinely happy . Im in love very much
and im gonna marry her , thats without doubt =) , i love you , angelica .
and i know we'll get through these times .
i guess its just they bring me down , because they were
once part of who i was , and it hurts , it hurts they left me like that .
i just , i dont know why ? was i not there enough ?
was i there too much ? was i just not good enough for them ?
iunno . , i just wish i knew
i think its the least i deserve ... :(
|| 12:48 PM
I LOVE YOU, MR CHRISTIAN STEAVAN SINGH ♥ ..
tagged day 122 ♥
red hand
Friday, September 24, 2010 || 2:38 AM
all i see is red .
all i can do is be angry .
i've snapped .
i cant help but hit .
i want to stop buht i cant
all i can do is get angry .
leave us the fuck alone .
seriously .
buht hey . wanna kick my ass ?
go ahead .
make my fucking day .
ill show you . instead of saying shit
come and do it .
you talk alot .
go ahead do your worst .
fucking hell .
you've pissed me off .
fucking ..
all i see is red .
all i wanna see is the red of your blood
flowing down your face
onto my fist .
lets try that one . then we'll see .
fucking hell
fucking lil gronk .
fuck you
fucking hell .
245 and im still angry
and as red as i was 3 hours ago
fucking funny wooo ! .
this is fucking great =)
Dear Christian .
Thursday, September 2, 2010 || 3:53 PM
I've had had the most amazing day ever with you.
There were stupid moments, laughs, smiles, hugging, kissing, just, everything.
This has been the most beautiful and perfect anniversary ever; and it can only get better from here right?
I love you so fucking much; just remember that.
You always know how to make me smile, laugh, cry, but most of all love.
Yeah, we're the corniest couple out, but meh! no one can compare to us right?
I found the right phrase for our love christian, & that's head over heels in love.
There's nothing else to describe it better.
I can't be without you, but when i do, i feel like flying.
My heart beats so much faster, i smile like no tmoro and i just, 6 hours used to be so much to us, but now, it's so little ):
I'm glad we'll be seeing eachother a lot in the next few weeks, or else i wouldn't know how to cope without you ):
I'm glad i've gotten to see you today. SO SO SO SO much, considering it's exams and all.
I just know, that today has been perfect.
Everything went to plan yeah boo?
I'm head over heels in love and i'm not gonna deny it.
I love you so fucking much Mr Christian Steavan Singh.
Happy Three Months Bookie.
You've made my last three 3 months the best fucking 3 months i could ever have.
You make my life better,
my heart better,
and just, me better.
I love you...
I Love You...
I.
FUCKING.
LOVE.
YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
Sleep well.
Get better.
Happy 93 days (:
mwah xx