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Thursday, September 30, 2010 || 3:02 PM
as the song true - Claude Kelly plays in the background ,
many memories come rushing back to mind , many painful ones ,
i guess cause that's the song that was in my mind at those times ,
i guess it holds those memories ,
and during those memories , i see clear now that i was always
the one who was trying to hold onto something , even if that
person wasn't so strong i still tried to keep them above water
and keep them on the ground , and i guess each time , friendship after
friendship it repeated itself .. kinda like deja vu ? except each time i didn't
see it coming , i wish i did , because even looking back on it , it fucking hurts
still .. so much ..
each time id get treated like crap , but id still wait for them to come online ,
talk to them , comfort them and even spend all night or days after school
with them , just to make sure they were okayyy just because i cared ,
yeah thanks for that one , for nothing , wasted time on all those fucking friendships
and for what ?
tears for nothing ? fantastic . brilliant
what a great bunch of friends you were , find someone else
and boom fuck off like i never mattered , oh wait ..
I FUCKING DIDN'T MATTER :)
oh wells .
i just know , even tho this blog doesn't seem like it ,
I'm happy , genuinely happy . Im in love very much
and im gonna marry her , thats without doubt =) , i love you , angelica .
and i know we'll get through these times .
i guess its just they bring me down , because they were
once part of who i was , and it hurts , it hurts they left me like that .
i just , i dont know why ? was i not there enough ?
was i there too much ? was i just not good enough for them ?
iunno . , i just wish i knew
i think its the least i deserve ... :(